Minutes to Midnight.

Things have been happening lately in my life. I would have loved to be able to say that everything’s been dandy and that I have been constantly living in a perpetual high, but sadly that is not the case. The best part is that I could have been in that scenario above, if I had chosen to make the right decisions last year, last month, last week or even yesterday.

I constantly forget that the only outcome of choosing the easy way out is a fuck up of a probable opportunity in the future. If I could just find a way to remind myself this at every single moment where I choose to sleep instead of wake, stroll instead of run, dream instead of live, perhaps I would not have this thought in my head. Because then, like they say, all the stars would have aligned and the only entity able to hinder my way is God Himself.

I have got to stop letting myself go.

On another note, this coming Sunday is one that I will be looking forward to tremendously, one spent in the company of someone that I have neither been spending time with nor spoken to in a ridiculous period of time – me.

It has been too long a time, actually, that I cannot even recall the emotions that stir at the thought of a whole day of just idly sipping hot tea, watching life go by behind the glass cocoon that I have hidden myself in, as the buzz of the world dies off in a simple flick of a finger. In fact, I cannot even begin to place myself in that same atmosphere that I used to live off a couple of years back; the thought of it both excites and scares me at the same time – Will I still enjoy it? Will it feel the same? Will I be able to live for months again without it?

Things I will need to reenact the past scenarios :

1. $20 for a whole day’s stay at a (still undecided) cafe.
2. Suitable playlist in the iPod, to the likes of Yuna, Mocca and Zee Avi.
3. Something to do which will occupy my time and invigorate my mind.

Back when I was schooling, #3 will always be studying, or the art of trying to study – You know, when you spent the whole day flipping from page 1 to page 50, and at the end of the day the only thing that you have really taken notice of was how cute the guy at the table behind is, and how you are so fucked up for the test that is happening the very next day? Bet you identify perfectly with that.

But this Sunday, this Sunday I will be getting dirty with my MBP, and it is something that has been keeping me in lively spirits all week despite the several bad news that has been slung around. So if anyone has any suggestions for #2 (songs which will fit in that playlist) and #3 (great programmes etc to install on the MBP), do drop me a comment. It will be much appreciated.

Have a great weekend everyone :)

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