The problem with me is that I limit myself to what I can be as I don’t have faith in what I am capable of and what I can achieve. And because I am afraid of rejection and facing the real truth (when I fail after I try), I don’t even set out with high goals in life in the first place.

I settle for being mediocre, I settle for ‘enough’, I settle for the in-betweens. If and when I subconsciously aim for a higher goal, once the smallest bump approaches, I would retreat and give up because I am wary of the pain and disappointment if the road comes to a dead end.

Which makes me a weak, weak person.

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I think it was 2 weeks back when the family and I decided to finally use our free Escape Themepark tickets; right on the expiry date itself. It was a long awaited trip for us since for countless weeks, Mum and Dad have been working even on Sundays. I miss days as such. Sometime last year, there was a period of time where every Sunday, we’d head out somewhere to spend time together.

Needless to say, with everyone’s busy schedule, such carefree days are far and in between. Even though I’ve officially declared my Sundays to be ‘Family Day’ for this year, I have a foreboding feeling that most of those would be spent in front of the television as the parents are, you guessed it, working.

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Choo Choo! Aren’t old school train tracks so darn cool? Reminds me of old school Mat Rocker music video! *Tak ku hirauuuukan panas mentari lagiiii demi cintaaaa ku rela menantiiiii*

The other day, Haikal and I wrecked our brains to find an activity to do which would fulfill the letter F for our Alphabet Weekends and finally came out with - keeping Fit while having Fun without Finance HAHA.

After searching though the store room, I finally found my trusty old Skate Scooter (from YEARS back) which, no surprise here, has rust all over, gave it a quick wipe and met the boyfriend downstairs who was already excitedly zipping around under my void deck.

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P/s. I’ve replied all comments dated before 15/01/08! (Like finally, huh? kekeke) Man, I must be more disciplined in replying comments :/ Self target : Every 2 days! Achievable! Yes! So, erm, keep the comments coming guys hehehe.

I didn’t blog about this but actually during New Year’s eve, my Granddad had to go undergo yet another operation; something to do with his cancer. On almost all the days that he was in the hospital, the whole family on my Dad’s side would meet up collectively to keep him company and keep his spirits high.

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HAHAHAHA! Amacam Bie, still love me? Man, I love the Lomo Fisheye!

Days (maybe weeks hehe) back, Haikal and I ‘celebrated’ our 6 months together. At this age, I have to say that 6 months feels like not much of an accomplishment as of yet. I recall back in secondary school, I would get SO darn excited when my relationships cross the first month’s mark. Maybe it’s all the experiences (though not much) of being in and out of relationships that heighten expectations.

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